New beginnings...a new home...a new life. Almost 8 years ago, my hidden Whimsical Sol began to shine bright again. I found the courage to leave an unhealthy marriage. With my 1 and 2 year old sons and my parrot, I started on a journey of faith, self-discovery, strength, healing, love and most of all peace.
How I endured and eventually escaped an emotionally abusive and controlling relationship, is something that I am going to have to ease into sharing. My ex used to joke that I had "SMD" -"Selective Memory Disorder." It was a fake disorder that he made up to describe my ability to only remember the good. Ironically, it turned out that my "Selective Memory Disorder" was actually a defense mechanism that allowed me to endure being with him as long as I did. The point is that, I like to focus on the positive and it takes a great deal of mental strength to think back on painful times in my life. I can do it, it might just take me awhile.
Back to new beginnings...
Pretty much everyone has read or at least heard of "The Secret." I knew "the Secret" without even knowing that I knew it. When I first left my ex, I moved into my parents' home in California. Even though my Mom and Dad lived out of state, I envisioned a new home for my new life. I visited model homes in my area and really saw the kids and I living in each one. At night, while my kids slept, I would study the Bible, inspirational & self-help books, pour through the model home brochures and Pottery Barn catalogs, and pray.
Two months after I had left, with no money and lengthy and painful divorce proceedings ahead of me, the kids and I visited my parents. I had casually talked to my Mom about the beautiful new development in my area. The next day, my Mom said that she talked to my Dad and he suggested I see what's available. I was shocked because I had no idea that they would be able to help me with my dream. One month later, I chose my home, then it was built and we were moving in 10 months after I had first begun my journey. (A few years later, I was able to repay my parents.)
Yes, I was blessed - I am blessed! I had faith that God would take care of my boys and me and he did it in a much bigger way than I ever thought possible! I was so excited about my new beginning that I wanted some ground rules or better yet, a blessing posted in the entry of our new home. I began to spend way too much time on the site: http://www.wonderfulgraffiti.com/. (I verified the site and it is now Wall Art.) Wonderful Graffiti had an amazing collection of quotes and sayings and designs to stick on your walls. "Welcome," in a magificent font was a nice start; it was just too basic/simple for me. Since I wasn't ready to give up quite yet, "God Bless This Mess," didn't sound right. I finally ended up modifying one of their sayings: